So the new year is nearly here! Well christmas still on its way but never the less.
I'm thinking sticking all my old stuff on here in one folder, and start a fresh. Some new stuff!
I'm starting to get my creative side back!! Has an awesome idea for a Masquerade theme <3
thinking about making the masks, photo's maybe? Paintings and more manga illustrations. It's been so long...

So while im away im doing nothing but sketches! Getting mah art mojo back innnitttt xD
And if you're so kind to help some idea's would help ^^ like character designs or the mask designs themselves ^^ lol

How much of a shitty year i have had really...
I'm desperatly hoping for a better one next... just... something a bit easier on me.

Anyway, I've got myself a new job... its not brilliant but its fun, and i do kinda anjoy it, and the pay is enough just to get me by for now. Made a few new friends which is awesome 8D
My "other friends" can go suck a dick ^^

Things with kev, well im hoping he is being more open with me. Now he knws how it all makes me feel and think... hope he does anyway... we've been okay since last month.

But if you think about it, cheating, going behind someones back it just doesnt make anything better so i dont understand why people do it...

Trying to be a stronger person... not who i used to be jst stronger. ive grown too much of a panzy -.-

just have to see how things go.

In that mood.
Has a new job. Me & Kev are fine (as far as I know) I has a plan of a sort of new start next year. Think i'd be pretty okay.
What's missing?
I have fuck all friends. That actually WANT to see me, TALK to me FIRST and don't invite me to things out of pitty. ):
Just having Kev gets pretty lonely cz some stuff i want to talk about he'd just go all "well... |: what am i spose to do?" (as have learnt the horrible way).
We never really get to do anything that I! want to do. I'm always doing things with people what THEY want to do. Till they get bored with seeing me...

just that day where just wanna say Fuck You to everything.

So, last night, i have this letter/card that he wrote for me last valentines up on my wall and it started falling down. As i stuck it back up i reread it. You would think i'd be all 'awww' but it just made me think and wonder why would he say those things? Did he even mean it? and the stuff that happened after was just a bad fluke?

I just don't know. i hate thinking. why can't things like that just dissapear?

"Don't shrug your shoulders and let me hold you"